🌙Opening Reflection
I’ve come to understand that some connections are written into our soul’s blueprint long before we take our first breath. In this season of my life, I’ve been trying to release someone I love deeply, not out of anger or loss, but from a place of sacred knowing. We had a soul contract—a divine agreement to meet, to grow, and eventually to part, so that we can each evolve into the fullness of our purpose. This is my thoughts on the journey of honoring that contract, trusting the pain, and choosing alignment over attachment.
💔 Love That Teaches
When you love someone with your whole being, letting go feels like tearing through the fabric of your soul. But sometimes, love isn’t meant to be held—it’s meant to teach. Our connection was profound, transformative, and filled with lessons both good and bad. We mirrored each other’s wounds and wisdom. I've tried to hold space for healing, but in the end I have to continue on my journey, I cannot force someone to heal and I cannot carry their karmic debt for them.
Letting go isn't failure or cruel - its a final act of love. A recognition that our paths, though once intertwined, needed to diverge for us to become who were meant to be and to be forced to face our wounds and to heal so that we can ascend to a new timeline and break our repetitive cycles of sabotage.
🔢 Numerology Insight: Soul Lessons in the Numbers
Although I won't post their personal information, they have a life path number 11. Master Number 11—a path of spiritual illumination, intuition, and deep emotional sensitivity. This number holds immense potential for awakening and leadership through healing. But when unbalanced, the 11 can feel overwhelmed by its own intensity, leading to escapism, emotional instability, and difficulty integrating its higher purpose.
He also has the vibration of Karmic Debt 19. Karmic Debt 19 carries one of the most intense lessons in numerology—it’s all about ego, independence, and humility.
In past lifetimes (or earlier in this one), there may have been misuse of power—dominating others, selfishness, or arrogance. This lifetime brings situations where the ego is tested. You must learn to stand strong on your own two feet without pushing others down or over-identifying with control. True strength comes from inner power and respect for others’ journey.
✨When this karmic debt is healed, it creates a true leader—independent, strong, and wise, yet also humble, compassionate, and respectful of others’ freedom. You learn how to use power with integrity, becoming a guiding light instead of a dominating force.✨
🔮 The Soul Contract
I believe we chose each other before this life began. In the quiet space between lifetimes, our souls agreed to meet, to love, and to part. This belief has softened the ache. It reminds me that our separation isn’t random—it’s purposeful. It’s part of a divine unfolding.
Soul contracts aren’t always easy to fulfill. They ask us to trust what we cannot see, to surrender what we deeply desire, and to honor the wisdom of our higher selves. In releasing this person, I honored our agreement. I chose evolution over comfort. I chose truth over attachment.
I pray he finds his healing and becomes who he was always supposed to be. His purpose is truly beautiful and courageous and I hope that in this release and in my trusting of the pain, that I set us both on the path back to ourselves.
🌱 Growth Through Grief
Grief isn't just sadness, it can be transformative. It's in the quiet moments, between unraveling and rebuilding that if you ask yourself the hard questions, sit in the silence and truly listen to your soul that transformation begins.
✍️ I loved him deeply. I still do. But love isn’t always enough to stay. We have both struggled for most of his lives, we tried to be each others anchor, their safe place. But when someone refuses to take responsibility for their actions—especially when those actions betray the very foundation of trust—love becomes a weight.
I didn’t leave because I stopped loving him. I left because I started loving myself enough to stop repeating a cycle that was breaking us both. He sees my leaving as abandonment, but the truth is: he abandoned me long before I walked away, and I'm keeping the promise we made before we got here. The promise that if either of us is stuck, that somehow we would come together and that in our release, our souls would correct alignment. I have to maintain my courage or I fail us both.
I know many will be confused and say my beliefs are nonsense, but I'm not here to convince anyone, I'm here to lead and to forge my own path no matter how that looks to anyone else. Through the lens of numerology, I know our paths were never meant to stay intertwined forever. We had a soul contract, a promise-to meet, to teach, to transform. And part of that contract was the goodbye.
I release him with love. I release myself with grace. And I trust that this pain is part of the evolution we both need.
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